I have no idea where to start on this pointless rambling. I am just confused.

Not about going to England. Of course I am a little scared because of support. But other than that, no worries.

My whole body just feels as if it is full of toxins. Not good toxins. Toxins of fear, of hurt, of stress.

I just need to get rid of them. I feel depressed. I have no idea what happened. Yesterday was a good day. Sort of.

But today, not so much. I feel like everything in my life is about to come crashing down if I don't do something soon. But I have no idea what to do except pray.

But even then I don't have that one special place to go to that is mine, or at least I think so. A place for God & I to talk.

I know that I can sit in my room and do that. But it's not the same. I really just want someone to go to and say "Hey, can we go somewhere and talk?". But I don't.

I am just so depressed. It has not been a good day.