A very wise person told me a very good analogy- picture a really old pump in the ground that's used to bring water up from the ground. You just have to keep pumping and keep pumping until the water comes up from the ground. The second you take your hand off the pump before the water comes up all the hard work you just put in is finished because all the water went back down. You've got to keep your hand on the pump until you get the water all the way up. And that's exactly what I'm doing, keeping my hand on the pump.

I've had to make some pretty hard decisions in the past couple of weeks. And all of which have not been easy or what I wanted to do. The hardest being my decision not to move to Seattle in the fall. Yes, you read that right, I'm not moving in the fall. Trust me, you're just as shocked about it is I was when I had to make the decisions. And let's just say it wasn't the easiest thing in the world.

You have your heart set on something. You know, no, you think this is what the Lord wants for you. But it's never what you think it is, is it? Move to Seattle. Don't move to Seattle. Move to Seattle. Don't move to Seattle. Decisions, decisions. I just pray I'm making the right one. I sure was looking forward to that change. Oh how I'm going to miss the anticipation of September 2008.

I loved the idea of moving to a completely different location, meet different people, get a new job, and all that jazz. I'm not a normal person. In fact, I hate normal. It just doesn't work for me. It never has and I don't think it ever will. It took someone else to point that out in my life. You know who you are and I thank you for that. Yet another piece to the never ending puzzle that I don't think I'll ever figure out. Or at least it seems that way.

I'm praying for you. I hate saying that because it sounds so typical Christian, doesn't it? At least I think so. But even so, it's true.

I love you.